Adjoaskinner’s Weblog

I am at the end of myself

aware that I can be broke but have faith

I am at the end of my rope

with no way for these feelings to be erased

There is a struggle about me

and there is a war deep within

There is a mountain before me

Feeling weak, losing hope, getting thin.

And all of my choices have led me

to the foundations on which I stand.

Now longing for a rock to climb on

and someone close to hold my hand.

But even when there is no person

who longs to be there as my aid

I have the choice and right decision

to follow the sun or the shade

To see myself here in the process

instead of what was, but was is

to see myself here in the present

feeling a new kind of bliss.

To see I have good things in tow

and they wrap like a blanket that’s warm

enveloping me in the darkness

to provide a shelter from the storm.

To build up a new world to live in

first asks me to trust then to move

when I’m too aware that I’m lonely

that I choose to take the wrong groom.

Yet my failures can become my fortune

when true faithfulness takes me toward health

And I then learn within the moment

its not about status or wealth

I go to the start to assess things

in order to move forward now

Knowing its worth it to pay the price

to find God within it somehow.

- Adjoa Skinner

based off of Erwin McManus’ talk @ Mosaic Westside on April 19, 2009